Holy crap! Did I ever fall off the bandwagon! My last blog was pretty positive with me running 20K – that was April 2/10! Now it is May 25/10 and I can’t believe it has been that long since I wrote in my blog. That also means that I haven’t been running… until today. Well, I had a pretty tough month in April… mostly being sick with the flu which prevented me from running the RPS. I also has some personal things going on which was a major distraction to say the least. In retrospect… I probably wasn’t as mentally prepared for that race. I like to believe that things happen for a reason so there was a reason why I wasn’t able to do the RPS. I remember afterwards, I knew that I wanted to take a break from running as this time training was mentally wearing me down and I had a lot going on in my life during those first few months of this year. It just felt too forced and I wasn’t having as much fun with it. Well, I wasn’t quite expecting to take this long of a break.
I originally wanted to start running again at the beginning of May but for some reason, I just had no interest. I felt like I needed some ‘me’ time which I guess meant doing not much of anything but eating and watching the tube! I dunno… I wanted less chaos in my life and I think I needed that time.
Over the past few days, I have been feeling a little edgy… like something was missing. I somehow didn’t feel quite right, a little off. Lately, I feel a sense of serenity – I am moving forward in my life and I am happy with where I am and where I am going. But I have started to let the little things get to me again which made me realize something was missing. So I finally did it! I went for a run…
Going for a run today allowed me to refocus and remember that I need to make sure I am taking care of myself – physically, mentally, and emotionally. I think I was starting to lose that focus a bit. But I know when I am in this zone, everything in my life seems to fall in place as it should. I am so happy I finally got in my head today and did something that I know helps to balance me.
So, what did I do? Well, it surely wasn’t about distance today. I ran in my neighborhood for 32 minutes doing 10 and 1′s. The weather wasn’t great but I was reminded of why I like running in the warmer months – the grass, the trees, the smell and sounds of nature. I realized today I am certainly not a winter runner and likely will never try to train for a marathon in the winter again. The reason I like running has a lot to do with being out in the greenness and sounds of mother nature that really helps me to make an inner connection.
I really enjoyed my run today for the most part. I didn’t really struggle and felt like I could keep going. I even passed by one lady and she said to me “good job!” – how encouraging! However, as I was enjoying my run, I was honked at. The man in the white van gave me a gesture that I should get off the road. I quickly gestured him back with my middle finger. WTF?!? If he wasn’t so ignorant, he would realize why I was running on the asphalt road and not the concrete sidewalk – I am trying to save my knees asshole! Ha! I smiled and thought “yep, I am back!”
