The RPS is only three and a half weeks away and I feel like I am not very well prepared. It is not that I don’t think I can do it. My first half-marathon was all about just finishing it and proving to myself that I can achieve something I once thought was impossible. But this time, I made some new personal goals of trying to actually make this an ongoing thing… something that I can get better at and push myself to new limits. Perhaps having this be my new hobby and continue moving myself forward. Everyone has different reasons for wanting to do a marathon. Mine are very personal as it has helped me get through some pretty tough times. In fact, when I am feeling down, the first thing I think is, I need to run. But while training for this marathon, I feel like there have been a few obstacles. I have been sick twice since I started training: once in January and again this month for a week now. Running indoors has definitely been a challenge as it takes a bit of extra effort; it would be so much easier to just put my gear on and out the door I go. Also, doing long runs indoors is not fun. So then comes the outdoor running in various minus temperatures which has generally been ok but again, another adjustment and a lot of preparing. And when lots of your friends are running too, it can get a little difficult trying to coordinate with everyone and, of course, everyone trains differently, are at different levels, and have their own reasons for doing it. All of which is fine and I love the support and giving support as well. I just hope it all comes together in the end and I meet my personal goals for this race. I am trying not to lose sight of that. I hope tomorrow I am over this cold and I can start training at my maximum again. I feel like I have little control over many things in my life; but this is something that I do have control over. It is all about me, and damn it, it’s about time.
